I put on perfume before I go to bed

Because I want to smell good when I’m half dead

Lay some roses on my head

Toss some pearls around  my meds

 

It’s glamour

And i enamored

Feel so pretty even though I’mmm-

On the verge of suicide

Of course I’m lying

Because a piece of my heart

has already died

It’s glamour

 

I put lipstick on before I take a bath

Because I like to feel like a star of the past

The bubbles pop and never come back

They leave alone like every other man

It’s glamour

And i enamored

Feel so pretty even though I’mmm-

On the verge of suicide

Of course I’m lying

Because a piece of my heart

has already died

It’s glamour

It’s glamour

And I’m enamored

It’s glamour

 

I feel so ugly inside

So ugly inside

So ugly inside

It’s glamour

It’s glamour

And i enamored

Feel so pretty even though I’mmm-

On the verge of suicide

Of course I’m lying

Because a piece of my heart

has already died

 

It’s glamour

(I might record this song and post it on here… )

You Feel It

You Feel It in the car
At the red light
And you Feel It on the train
No one by your side
And you Feel It in the shower
Water streaming in your face
And you Feel It in a bed
No one to embrace
But you Feel It in your head
Those little
minuscule issues
That don’t matter to her
Don’t matter to him
But they matter to you

And you Feel in at the coffee shop
Staring into your latte
And you Feel It walking down the street
When someone pushes you and don’t say sorry
And you Feel It on the subway
You feel invisible in plain sight
And you Feel It at work
Wondering what you’re doing life

But you Feel It in your head
Those little
minuscule issues
And it swirls with dread
This anxiety eats you
You shrivel up
Because the darkness took your sunlight
And now you cry every night because you don’t know what to
Do
Doesn’t matter to her
Doesn’t matter to him
But it matters to you

And
You Feel It in the car
At the red light
And you Feel It on the train
No one by your side
And you Feel It in the shower
Water streaming in your face
And you Feel It in a bed
No one to embrace

You Feel It on the plane
Flying in the sky
You Feel It on a carousel
Like your gonna die
You Feel It at the diner
Late at night
2 am
Eating fries

You Feel It all the time
You Feel It all the time
You Feel It all the time

K.L.

I fell deep

Free falling into an endless pit

I fell hard

My heart was murdered

and you’re the culprit

I wanted to tell you

But I had to Think About It

I couldn’t wait to see you again

You made me tremble and I couldn’t sit

You made me forget my name

But there was something about I couldn’t quit

I wanted to hold you

But I had to Think About It

I don’t know why but I knew something was wrong

Something about you seems counterfeit

Did someone hurt you?

Could they not commit?

I wanted to ask you

But I had to Think About It

I heard the news

My heart couldn’t transmit

Spiraled out into the ocean

I’ll sail away, and my face will be moonlit

I want you to join

But I have to Think About It

 

You painted me by numbers

But you left out the red

Guess it would remind you

Of how my heart bled

 

You painted me all blue

And I painted you black

Beat up and broken

Because it’s color you lack

 

You painted her all pink

Because you think she’s the one

She looks like an angel

But she left you lonesome

 

But you’re too blind to see

How she’s painting others

With all of the colors

 

That she took from you

And you took from me

 

And the crayons are broken

And she didn’t paint by what the numbers said

Because it would remind her

Of how your heart bled

-K.L.